Pointless effort

A mom who is sick and thinks that she is going to die, when she will be fine. A dad that does nothing but drinks all day and does nothing in the house. A sister that does nothing but ticks off both parents with her bad temper. A brother who fuels the anger in the house. And friends who when you try to talk to give you an attitude and short answers where it feels like an interview. Sitting on your ass trying to talk to someone to spill out our heart. And waiting on someone to talk to, but sitting looking at the sky trying to find the first star of the night to make a wish. Pointless efforts everyone to start trying to talk to someone, because they just seem to go nowhere. Banking so much effort into this and trying to get it to work, cause don't want to feel like a fool to have known that all that time has gone to waste. It's like you try so hard to make an effort just to sit and try to figure out where did that feeling go so suddenly. Waiting for the next time to be able to reunited.

Trapped

Staying home bored outta one's mind trying to find something to do. Looking back and forth making vain attempts to find something to do. Look at peoples thoughts on a certain situation, and notice that you are probably the only one that believes the same way you do. Feeling not only trapped in your own home, bored, but trapped in a society that seems to be so accepting and open to everything. Yet the same society that seems to be accepting closes out on the voices of those who do not seem to fit the schema of the norm. Alone and feeling like whatever you say, you have to anticipate a rebuttal from someone. Never seeming to get the satisfaction that you are right. Feel somewhat lost on trying to make a point. Getting criticized for being too narrow-minded and too closed off. Everyone has their viewpoints and gotta learn to accept it, but yet it seems to hard. Trapped and nowhere to run, what do you do? Stand and fight seems to be the answer, but it would seem pointless to try. Sitting around waiting for something big to happen. Curious on how a single person can change the world. Pondering where the morals some of our parents instilled in us went. Contemplating about how to somehow break free from this trap. Sitting and wondering how to get out of my situation, and out into the open and be happy with the ones you love.

Frustration

Sitting in a bus having, girls yell that they have us by the balls. Frustrated about how such a great weekend could have been so easily forgotten over something. Yet the situation never seems to just die down but just increasing. More and more rules on how to be respectful to a person that give you no respect in return. To have to be told constantly that you have to push to give respect to people, but when they get talk they are just fueling the ego; to add to one's thought that they are superior and because they were not told to show any respect treat us like trash and degrade those who try to be nice. Isn't it frustrating to not only have that, but to have people mock you; to believe that you are so stupid that you are oblivious to everything that happens, the worst part was to not have the person you thought loved you won't defend you and just sit to as you get ridiculed. Frustrated that you can not do anything about the situation, but stand there and accept it, because you are suppose to be a leader are suppose to be a good example for those whole look up to you for inspiration and help.

Broken trust

The start of the new year is suppose to bring new joys, yet the year seems to bring nothing more than sorrow and misery. Though things seems to be okay on the surface it is like the gilded age of life. To have things seem so perfect on the outside, but when you have so many family issues. Putting up fronts so that no one can see your weakness. Yet underneath it all broken trusts eat you up inside. Insomniac nights thinking of ways to fix the situation. Hoping and praying for things to work out even though the ones that have supported you the most now has given up on you. Saying things they don't mean but hurts all that much. The hope and drive for going on is maybe a slight chance of change.

End of the year

The end of the year seems to bring both joy and sorrow. It shows how much you have accomplished in the year and how many more that you haven't achieved. Waiting anxiously for what is to come. Looking back on how many mistakes done. So many expectations created and so many friends made. Just as many enemies have been made. Curious about what the new year holds and somewhat afraid if it'll be as bad as this one or better. Waiting on the last day with a jumbled thoughts and frustrations of how things didn't work the way things want.

Hidden Emotions

You know you feel so strongly about someone, and yet your loved ones and family has problems about it. They constantly badger you about the hidden emotions you have for a person. No matter how much you tell them otherwise they never seem to submit to your answers. Those vexatious people say whatever they can to try to get you to break. It seems like all is right but at night you seem to implore so that you would be able to sleep. Laying in bed with replete amount of the days tiring events. With a feeling of laceration from those that who once trusted you with their dear life. The only thing that seems keep the motivation up is a few sweet words in the ear and the feeling on the lips that seems to give you a feeling that can only be describe as excitement as a little kid waiting for Christmas. A feeling which never seems to lackluster. Sitting wanting for the moment that all the drama will blow over; to oust all the frustration in the mind that have caused obsolescence. The thought of being about to prognosticate about the future seems all so soothing and lax. To be able to repose without your hidden emotions is probably the greatest joy.

Lies and deceit

How ironic is it that the people that tell you not to lie are the ones that do it most. Words of wisdom from parents saying never to lie or deceit people because it is a sin, yet how hypocritical they are. Sometimes they jump to conclusions before any real allegations are presented to them. Having to stand someone up because your parents thing that they are a negative influence or because they think the person's family hates you. When will all the lies and deceit end. How many times must they ruin others personal life for their own pride. Do they not know the pride is the cause for many of the worlds greatest problems and is also one of the greatest sins? Its really infuriating having your hopes destroyed; soullessly and powerlessly stand there and not be able to say a word in rebuttal. Worse of all is the fact that it might also hurt others. Its not only that the situation deprives one from joy with lies, but also it can effect a person; changing ones face from joy to gloomy in less than a second. Also how can one's jealousy and envy can play such a big role in this whole situation. Jealous that they get a minor reduction of attention and envy for it back. Spoiled little brats is the best way to describe these type of people. One must learn to humble themselves and learn that not everything revolves around them. To learn humility is probably one of the world's greatest gift; you will learn to accept situations the way it is and not try to overturn the situation in your liking.