Broken trust

The start of the new year is suppose to bring new joys, yet the year seems to bring nothing more than sorrow and misery. Though things seems to be okay on the surface it is like the gilded age of life. To have things seem so perfect on the outside, but when you have so many family issues. Putting up fronts so that no one can see your weakness. Yet underneath it all broken trusts eat you up inside. Insomniac nights thinking of ways to fix the situation. Hoping and praying for things to work out even though the ones that have supported you the most now has given up on you. Saying things they don't mean but hurts all that much. The hope and drive for going on is maybe a slight chance of change.