Pointless effort

A mom who is sick and thinks that she is going to die, when she will be fine. A dad that does nothing but drinks all day and does nothing in the house. A sister that does nothing but ticks off both parents with her bad temper. A brother who fuels the anger in the house. And friends who when you try to talk to give you an attitude and short answers where it feels like an interview. Sitting on your ass trying to talk to someone to spill out our heart. And waiting on someone to talk to, but sitting looking at the sky trying to find the first star of the night to make a wish. Pointless efforts everyone to start trying to talk to someone, because they just seem to go nowhere. Banking so much effort into this and trying to get it to work, cause don't want to feel like a fool to have known that all that time has gone to waste. It's like you try so hard to make an effort just to sit and try to figure out where did that feeling go so suddenly. Waiting for the next time to be able to reunited.

Trapped

Staying home bored outta one's mind trying to find something to do. Looking back and forth making vain attempts to find something to do. Look at peoples thoughts on a certain situation, and notice that you are probably the only one that believes the same way you do. Feeling not only trapped in your own home, bored, but trapped in a society that seems to be so accepting and open to everything. Yet the same society that seems to be accepting closes out on the voices of those who do not seem to fit the schema of the norm. Alone and feeling like whatever you say, you have to anticipate a rebuttal from someone. Never seeming to get the satisfaction that you are right. Feel somewhat lost on trying to make a point. Getting criticized for being too narrow-minded and too closed off. Everyone has their viewpoints and gotta learn to accept it, but yet it seems to hard. Trapped and nowhere to run, what do you do? Stand and fight seems to be the answer, but it would seem pointless to try. Sitting around waiting for something big to happen. Curious on how a single person can change the world. Pondering where the morals some of our parents instilled in us went. Contemplating about how to somehow break free from this trap. Sitting and wondering how to get out of my situation, and out into the open and be happy with the ones you love.

Frustration

Sitting in a bus having, girls yell that they have us by the balls. Frustrated about how such a great weekend could have been so easily forgotten over something. Yet the situation never seems to just die down but just increasing. More and more rules on how to be respectful to a person that give you no respect in return. To have to be told constantly that you have to push to give respect to people, but when they get talk they are just fueling the ego; to add to one's thought that they are superior and because they were not told to show any respect treat us like trash and degrade those who try to be nice. Isn't it frustrating to not only have that, but to have people mock you; to believe that you are so stupid that you are oblivious to everything that happens, the worst part was to not have the person you thought loved you won't defend you and just sit to as you get ridiculed. Frustrated that you can not do anything about the situation, but stand there and accept it, because you are suppose to be a leader are suppose to be a good example for those whole look up to you for inspiration and help.