End of the year

The end of the year seems to bring both joy and sorrow. It shows how much you have accomplished in the year and how many more that you haven't achieved. Waiting anxiously for what is to come. Looking back on how many mistakes done. So many expectations created and so many friends made. Just as many enemies have been made. Curious about what the new year holds and somewhat afraid if it'll be as bad as this one or better. Waiting on the last day with a jumbled thoughts and frustrations of how things didn't work the way things want.

Hidden Emotions

You know you feel so strongly about someone, and yet your loved ones and family has problems about it. They constantly badger you about the hidden emotions you have for a person. No matter how much you tell them otherwise they never seem to submit to your answers. Those vexatious people say whatever they can to try to get you to break. It seems like all is right but at night you seem to implore so that you would be able to sleep. Laying in bed with replete amount of the days tiring events. With a feeling of laceration from those that who once trusted you with their dear life. The only thing that seems keep the motivation up is a few sweet words in the ear and the feeling on the lips that seems to give you a feeling that can only be describe as excitement as a little kid waiting for Christmas. A feeling which never seems to lackluster. Sitting wanting for the moment that all the drama will blow over; to oust all the frustration in the mind that have caused obsolescence. The thought of being about to prognosticate about the future seems all so soothing and lax. To be able to repose without your hidden emotions is probably the greatest joy.

Lies and deceit

How ironic is it that the people that tell you not to lie are the ones that do it most. Words of wisdom from parents saying never to lie or deceit people because it is a sin, yet how hypocritical they are. Sometimes they jump to conclusions before any real allegations are presented to them. Having to stand someone up because your parents thing that they are a negative influence or because they think the person's family hates you. When will all the lies and deceit end. How many times must they ruin others personal life for their own pride. Do they not know the pride is the cause for many of the worlds greatest problems and is also one of the greatest sins? Its really infuriating having your hopes destroyed; soullessly and powerlessly stand there and not be able to say a word in rebuttal. Worse of all is the fact that it might also hurt others. Its not only that the situation deprives one from joy with lies, but also it can effect a person; changing ones face from joy to gloomy in less than a second. Also how can one's jealousy and envy can play such a big role in this whole situation. Jealous that they get a minor reduction of attention and envy for it back. Spoiled little brats is the best way to describe these type of people. One must learn to humble themselves and learn that not everything revolves around them. To learn humility is probably one of the world's greatest gift; you will learn to accept situations the way it is and not try to overturn the situation in your liking.

Unforgiving current

Why is it that its so hard to be happy. That someone or some people get in the way of happiness. Why can't they learn to accept things. Seriously one must learn themselves to not be so nosy and let others enjoy their life. Its like they have nothing better to do with their life. It is like their actions seem to cause an unforgiving current crash; quick violent and seems to destroy everything in the way. One can only hope that things will get better

Interminable love

Dreams sometimes feel too real for their own good. Emotions shackled, but yet feels not of a prisoner. Contemplating and prognosticating the future. Insomnia and counting the down the moments. The living seconds dying as the moment of truth arrives. With much more than a tinge of nerves from night to night. Laconic conversations with a plethora of meaning. An inadvertent loathe of the night for it seems to drag on till the morning. You can not seem to eschew the night and can not fray against it, so live with it. And wait for the day you can hand over your interminable love.

mixed emotion

Seems like there is so much to do and so little time to do it. So many mixed emotions and feels like there is no way out. You take one step forward in your school work and it seems to just send you hurdling back a few steps. And its so hard trying to sort out all your feelings to know what is it that you truly want or truly feel. Whether your emotion for something is genuine or if its just a fluke. But it seems that everyday is a live and learn situation and only time can tell. And you just have to live it to know the true meaning. A day seems to be only as good as the lesson that you can take from it.