End of the year

The end of the year seems to bring both joy and sorrow. It shows how much you have accomplished in the year and how many more that you haven't achieved. Waiting anxiously for what is to come. Looking back on how many mistakes done. So many expectations created and so many friends made. Just as many enemies have been made. Curious about what the new year holds and somewhat afraid if it'll be as bad as this one or better. Waiting on the last day with a jumbled thoughts and frustrations of how things didn't work the way things want.

Hidden Emotions

You know you feel so strongly about someone, and yet your loved ones and family has problems about it. They constantly badger you about the hidden emotions you have for a person. No matter how much you tell them otherwise they never seem to submit to your answers. Those vexatious people say whatever they can to try to get you to break. It seems like all is right but at night you seem to implore so that you would be able to sleep. Laying in bed with replete amount of the days tiring events. With a feeling of laceration from those that who once trusted you with their dear life. The only thing that seems keep the motivation up is a few sweet words in the ear and the feeling on the lips that seems to give you a feeling that can only be describe as excitement as a little kid waiting for Christmas. A feeling which never seems to lackluster. Sitting wanting for the moment that all the drama will blow over; to oust all the frustration in the mind that have caused obsolescence. The thought of being about to prognosticate about the future seems all so soothing and lax. To be able to repose without your hidden emotions is probably the greatest joy.

Lies and deceit

How ironic is it that the people that tell you not to lie are the ones that do it most. Words of wisdom from parents saying never to lie or deceit people because it is a sin, yet how hypocritical they are. Sometimes they jump to conclusions before any real allegations are presented to them. Having to stand someone up because your parents thing that they are a negative influence or because they think the person's family hates you. When will all the lies and deceit end. How many times must they ruin others personal life for their own pride. Do they not know the pride is the cause for many of the worlds greatest problems and is also one of the greatest sins? Its really infuriating having your hopes destroyed; soullessly and powerlessly stand there and not be able to say a word in rebuttal. Worse of all is the fact that it might also hurt others. Its not only that the situation deprives one from joy with lies, but also it can effect a person; changing ones face from joy to gloomy in less than a second. Also how can one's jealousy and envy can play such a big role in this whole situation. Jealous that they get a minor reduction of attention and envy for it back. Spoiled little brats is the best way to describe these type of people. One must learn to humble themselves and learn that not everything revolves around them. To learn humility is probably one of the world's greatest gift; you will learn to accept situations the way it is and not try to overturn the situation in your liking.

Unforgiving current

Why is it that its so hard to be happy. That someone or some people get in the way of happiness. Why can't they learn to accept things. Seriously one must learn themselves to not be so nosy and let others enjoy their life. Its like they have nothing better to do with their life. It is like their actions seem to cause an unforgiving current crash; quick violent and seems to destroy everything in the way. One can only hope that things will get better

Interminable love

Dreams sometimes feel too real for their own good. Emotions shackled, but yet feels not of a prisoner. Contemplating and prognosticating the future. Insomnia and counting the down the moments. The living seconds dying as the moment of truth arrives. With much more than a tinge of nerves from night to night. Laconic conversations with a plethora of meaning. An inadvertent loathe of the night for it seems to drag on till the morning. You can not seem to eschew the night and can not fray against it, so live with it. And wait for the day you can hand over your interminable love.

mixed emotion

Seems like there is so much to do and so little time to do it. So many mixed emotions and feels like there is no way out. You take one step forward in your school work and it seems to just send you hurdling back a few steps. And its so hard trying to sort out all your feelings to know what is it that you truly want or truly feel. Whether your emotion for something is genuine or if its just a fluke. But it seems that everyday is a live and learn situation and only time can tell. And you just have to live it to know the true meaning. A day seems to be only as good as the lesson that you can take from it.

giving thanks

Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks for all that you have. So thank yesterday for all the moments its had. Thank today for all the lessons that have been learned and emotions felt. And thanks tomorrow for all the secrets and wonders that hold. Through all the love and grace in the world there are those who have nothing and celebrate nothing. Those who's love ones that have left and those without none. Those with more benefits and those with none. Those who have something to eat and those that have nothing and are fending by digging through leftovers. Those that have a family and those who have to pray for theirs to rest in peace. So remember to keep them in your mind, heart, and soul when you are celebrating or just sitting there.But in all smile cause no matter what life throws at the world everything will be better. Lastly how can one forget to thank all those who have made an impact on life and those who will make an impact on life.

propaganda

Parents seem to follow a lot on what one person says. Bias shouldn't get in the way of the truth. Also gotta be careful of propaganda. It seems to be plaguing our parents and when you try to talk some sense into them they lash out in retaliation. Its annoying. Power is great, but many people should learn to not abuse it. Especially if its a priest... A lot of people bring shame to the rest of us.

Sweet dreams

So much happens over little things. Sometimes its hard to believe you can have a sweet dream even though you know you should feel bad about yourself. Never taking things seriously seems to be the answer sometimes, but it seems like it can't be the solution to everything. On a different note everything seems so problematic. Why can't there be a "fix it" button or something. Solve problems with girls, friends, economy, maybe even family. Everything seems to end up at the same spot; the location seems to be a giant fiasco.

Making up your mind

Seems like guys really can't make up their mind. So much but can't seem to get thoughts straight. It gets irritating sometimes not being able to know exactly what you want. Thoughts in mind feels just to keep going around in circles. What to do?!?!?

Time and Fronts

Time seems to be of the essences now and days. Everyone can't seem to afford to do the certain things that they used to like. It seems like everyone is overloading on their load. Also giving a front of innocence is one thing, but being winy is another. Some people should learn to stop and become more mature. Some has gotta stop crying over random bullshit i grow a back bone. Its so irritating how people hide behind others to cover their ass for something they are doing.

Anger

Anger seems to plague all of us. Oh how such little things can tick someone off and others have to suffer cause of it. Sometimes sitting and wondering is all that you can do. Taking peoples shit of dishing it out. It seems like a lot has to be done with whats going on in life. Wish people can just talk it out instead of holding it in and then making everyone else suffer.

The little things in life

Sometimes its the little things in life that make a world of difference. How ironic. Whether it is from not being able to fulfill something, mindless gossip, or a smile from someone. Through many trials seem to appear i guess the best thing to do is keep on going, cause there is no point in crying of a little spilled milk right. Who does wish life would to stay at the moments where everything seems to be moving too fast.

lies

Fake smiles and empty laughs seem to fill these skies. Feels like living a lie for some reason. Feel too tired to care for the most part. Always seem kinda hung up with homework doesn't seem like there is much but it. Maybe it'll take a fall to get things better.

New Surprises

It seems like when the day is boring then something comes and it is just a big surprise. Life always seems to have something interesting in store just waiting to happen. Also AP classes seem to be the death of so many this year.

stress

Its so easy to say not to stress but god is it hard to not let the stress get to you. Not only is it ap classes and piano, but there is also so many distractions in the way. Falling just adds on to the stress.

Insomnia

Whether you count to a million or just listen to your favorite song you just can't fall asleep. Feeling anxious for the next day that probably won't hold anything special, but you still can't fall asleep cause your expecting something great. It feels like the insomnia is just there and won't go away. Why though? Even if you know that tomorrow doesn't hold anything great. Hoping for the best is probably something that everyone experiences and that's why we can't sleep.

Over-loading

Biting off more than you can chew. It's a saying that all of us most likely have heard before. Whether you say it or hear it, its a fact that happens to us all. Don't you sometimes feels like you are getting too overwhelmed,that you are over-loaded and just want to give up.

Surprises

Have you ever expected for something to be just dull and boring and something happens to surprise you. You feel as though life is just set up for things like this to happen. Weather the surprise is good or bad thing, life is just to short. So learn to enjoy life for what it gives you. Whether it is getting yelled at. Or having awkward conversations that don't seem to go anywhere. The surprises in your life will always be there, but comes at random moments so enjoy them while you can.

Something more

Have you ever heard good advice but yet you never take it? Or not take your own advice. Well it seems like those things are just to help prevent you from getting hurt again. But sometimes you just feel that all those advice are good logically, you feel as though there is something more in the picture that makes you seem to ignore it all. You feel as though you should heed those warnings, but you still charge through a situation without thinking hoping for the best.

Just right

Have you ever felt like you can't be yourself unless you are with a certain someone? Even though you are sad that person seems always be there at the right time. Though sometimes you aren't sure why they seem to hold on to you. You are just happy that they accept you for who you are and they wouldn't have you any other way. You just feel that when you're with them that everything seems just right.

Nervous breakdowns and sad news

Ever feel like you are about to have a nervous breakdown over something that you are about to do, or have your heart sink when you heard sad news. Sometimes you ask yourself why. Why do you feel nervous when you know it's just gotta happen. And why is it though you hear this news what hurts you the most is that you can't do anything about it. These questions will always be there and you just have to except it sometimes.

Bond

Have you ever felt that you were somewhat bonded to someone or something. The feeling of joy and pain coming from it. As if you just cant let go. Through it all you feel like it was worth it. And the bond you had to this seems to get more and more unbreakable. I guess things all have something important in your life in some way or another. Sometimes the bonds that you hold dear are also the things that hurt you the most, but you won't let go but for some reason push foward

definition of a friend

Have you ever felt like saying what was on your mind but you thought if you did it would bring your friends down or ruin a mood? Ever felt like you wanted to but afraid of what might happen? Sometimes there is nothing wrong with opening up. Sometimes keeping in the pain will just tear u apart. Friends should always be there for you to listen and help you with your problems. A friend should be with you and not be embarrassed or ashamed to to be with you. Leave you and tell you that they don't want to be with you. Though sometimes they might do and you end up feeling lost, then all you can do is pray that maybe things will be better like before while everyone is happy even though there are times of hardship. They say a true friend is there from the start to the end and through thick and thin. Going through it all sometimes you want to let go but you can't for a reason. Letting go is a lot easier said then done.

A change of perspective

Sometimes its the smallest things that change your perspective. Sometimes things feel just right and you even get the sweetest dreams in the world and you just can't get them outta your mind weather its the person of the opposite sex or your friends. Other times it throws you into maybe sorrow and anger, but for some reason you can't turn away. It's so confusing how a person can act up on you in so many ways. I guess you are only effected by those who have some sort of place in your heart for.

Cherish

They say that you don't know what you have till it's gone. That you should cherish those things weather it is a person or thing, but i say you should also cherish the moments you have. Cause nothing lasts forever. For many of us we take things for grant and let those cherished moments go to waste. Maybe fantasies really do come true and not just in stories or games.

sticks and stones

They say that sticks and stones may break your bones, but words really do hurt you. Who says actions speak louder than words? Sometimes its the words that are what effect people the most. Though sometimes the only time you can be who you really are is when you talk to them. To show who you really are is really hard sometimes when you are in person. Other times words are how you vent and sometimes its how people get to you.

undefined lines

Undefined lines are just there. It the line the divides but you do not know where and how. It separates your friends and enemies. Your friends and what you think is something more. It's a line that you might have trouble trying to make solid. But it's so confusing when that line is not solid and you get hurt. You're friends back-stab you and sometimes it feels like a slap in the face when you think there is something more when there is not. It's hard sometimes to tell someone about your feelings cause they just can't seem to relate to you anymore.

Quick assumptions and Masks

Ever had someone think a certain way to you, but you ended up being good friends with them. They stay by you through thick and thin but then a small event happens and you are left lost. You try finding yourself and it just feels like your wearing a mask so that no one can point you out. You can't find the right thing to do. Should you be like those people that change and change yourself so that you can still keep those friends. It just feels like like you are alone sometimes.

trust fades to nothing

Ever feel like things change and you can't see to trust anyone. The people that used to tell you everything and the person that you turn to to tell about your thoughts. It's like they leave you for someone else when they say that have your back. It feels like a knife.

empty smiles

Ever smile just so that people that think your okay. But yet inside you don't feel joyed at all. I'm pretty sure all of us done it for others. The only joy you seem to get is to cheer up someone else's day.

sweet melody and wishful dreams

dreams are nothing more than a bunch of cells sending off signals right? well why is something that seems so simple, seem so good. laying in bed and enjoying sweet melodies of the music, and for some even bringing them to tears thinking of their pasts. feels like dreams brings more than just good thoughts during the night, it gives a laughs and sometimes hope that things will be better than the last day. the dreams just seem to get better as summer winds down. where were they before...

blast from the past

why does things seem to always repeat. have you ever felt neglected, pushed aside, and unwanted. remember this all too well. happened once and afraid it might come up and happen again. it's a sad thing but i guess its something you just can't control. life seems to get so complicated, but yet its the same thing again.

winding down

As things wind down don't you feel like it wasn't what you expected it to be. Summer winding down and school is going to pick back up soon. Don't you just wish that you can restart summer and do it the right way. Feels like there is not much time left, but so much to do that won't be able to be done

summer loving under the shooting stars

Summer loving is such a complex thing. you can't tell if you really like the person or it's just a short term thing. its really frustrating trying to get your emotions straight. and as for the meteor shower. if only the city lights were gone. seeing 4 really made my day though, but i wish i could share it with someone. :D

distance

sometimes it feels like when you put in the effort to move foward you just seem to end up moving backwards 2 step. it feels like all the effort you put into it was just to move backwards. its sometimes really hard to do anything when no one is taking you seriously. gah its just so frustrating when all your efforts are useless. sometimes it feels like distance is just getting bigger and bigger. everything seem so much harder than before.

words that are unspoken

sometimes when you are with someone that is important with you, you have a thought in mind but you can't seem to find the rights words or don't have the guts to express it. today is just one of those days where i can't seem to get what i want to say out. but even though i couldn't express myself i still had a good day, but not perfect

fullmoon moonlight

Staring at the fullmoon really helps u contemplate what is going on in your life. your friends, your family, and yourself. Today was a really interesting day, from taking care of a friends little sister while she runs off wit my sister, to seeing live fishes. And while all this was going on i was alone just contemplating about what's real and fake. Who's actually there for me and who i'm actually there for. and its shocking how much i discovered.

backfire

iono why but sometimes when things seem to right and yet inside u feel so sad. it seems lik wat you were expecting kinda backfired in ur face. but today isnt one of those days. XD but i was feelin lik that a few days straight.

bailing...

why do ppl make plans if they end up bailing on you for differnt plans that come up after... eh its just kinda annoyin

poser shit

right as soon as i come out of church i get this poser guy who keeps callin me out. i ignore him cause he was just tryin to b funny to his cousins but it was startin to get to me. i kept my cool in front of him but everyone could tell that i was super pissed. so as soon as my friends jon and alex leave to teh church he goes up call wants to battle. i did 2 bboy battles and a poppin battle and he didnt even do shit.... so i just ignored him and went back to my dancing. then he comes wit a bottle of soda and pores it all over my dancin area. one of the things u never do to a dancer is fuckin mess up wit their dance area. so i just sucked it up and moved over. then he gets up into my face. he was lik an inch away from touchin my face. he starts to blurt out bs lik, u think ur og huh. im fuck u up. so i stick my hand between the small gap between us and step back. i told him if he has a problem wit my attitude then get the fuck away. he ends up leavin and comin back, thats when my sis jumps in and tells him to fuck off too. then it just ends up almost being a brawl. but in teh end those posers left, just as soon as jon and alex comes back. somethin i learned about them is that they never fight fair, and always fight together. its never just a 1 on 1 thing wit them. but after everythin we end up goin out and have a quick dip where i noticed a weird bnig bite zit thingy.

Rats?!?!?!?!

So i woke up all sore today from sleepin on the floor. It was pretty much a borin normal day untill i watch fast and the furious, that when i was lik o shit that scene wit the azn guys is so fimilar. its right next to teh garden mall. but after all and all a rat ran into the house... the reason being is cause the guy that is rentin out one of our rooms left the door open when he was smokin... but i tried to kill it, but attempt failed and it dissapeared.

irony of the day

so its kinda of an ironic day. my mommy left to vietnam(T.T) and i thought i was goin to have everythin under control. but next thing i noe nancy gets hurt and starts bleedin from her ear... my day overall was very differnt from wat i was expecting.

Tired,Scaried, and Sad

So today i got a nice wake up call from my friend tiffany which was kinda belated. lol so today is the last day before my mom leaves. Im sad that she is leavin. and scaried that i might die of hunger.... and tired, well cause i always am. XD

EZ street

today really sucked ass. i followed these instructions from my drivers ed. it said to go to the dmv cause it said they will help wit get this form. so when i went they said to go to the local drivers ed skool and theyll give me a form. so on my way to my mom's friends place we see a place called EZ STREET(don't use these guys, they are a gypt). so i stop by and they just said to sit down and fill this stuff out, but when i was tryin to read everythin they just took the form. and they tell me i have to pay lik 20 if i dont want to go on wit their coarse for drivers training.... it was the most retarded thing in the world.

mini golf ^^

well on this hot day i woke up at lik 11 sweating... but after some lunch and a shower i went on wit my day even though i wish i could have gone to the beach wit my friend tiffany ^^. but i went to mass and after to work. my day was all good except for when i was at the store. apparently ppl cant just answer a simple question witout yellin. i mean lik i see one of my co workers and ask him wats wrong and he started to yell at me about how he has to buy tickets for his vacation for 150. and i asked him why not have a road trip for fun and he just started to yell and the customers were lik wtf is goin over there. but after work my good friend took me my sis and his lil nephew out to go mini golf. i did well teh first few coarses wit hole in ones, but after lik hole 4 i started to suck and got beat by the lil 5 year old. but all in all it was good got to try somethin new.

first time

first time using blogger. ^^ but i just wanted to vent about my day. its pretty much just my dad that ruined the day. he comes back from vietnam and spends no time wit the family but just showers, takes a nap, and then leaves us to go drinkin wit his friend. and whenever he comes home from drinkin he is a drunkin idiot who wont leave me alone. lik he would always make up bs. and its just annoyin. but thanks to my friend tiffany i feel better. ^^ iono wat i would do witout her. but there was some fun. i got to hang out and relax alittle.